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memorialrainbowHappiness is still an important thing to remember.
I should have anticipated the Madoka finale depressing me out as much as it did. Afterward, I just kind of sat in my room alone for a while. I thought to myself about my life and why I do the things I do. Yeah, I want to get out of here. I've finally figured out the reason I like leaving Zanesville every Thursday -- not only because I can, and because I have the money to spend it, but also because I CAN'T STAND IT HERE. I need to be honest. It's okay, but I wasn't destined to be here. I cried back in 2000 when I came here, and my mom said not to offend everybody who lived here. So I kept my mouth shut. And while summer is something I'm used to in the Z, this spring thing can just shove it.
No Gus Macker this year? Another reason to leave Zanesville. Seriously, that's like cancelling all of summer right there. Thanks guys.
What if I ignored destiny for a minute? What if I just shut my eyes and not worry? I stress out so much over making the wrong decision that I don't make a decision at all. If it were up to me? I'd move to at least Columbus. Or Cincinnati. And I'm rather smitten with Charlotte right now. I would quit my day job. I would get a part-time job and spend my time talking with people and creating. If I could, that is what I would do. What I didn't do when I was at Miami. Make connections, but more importantly, make music. Not sit in my apartment all day watching television. I want the confidence that I've gotten from Y-City Writers, and I want to find that with my music.
"How do you get to heaven? And who has that much time?"
Any thoughts?
I should have anticipated the Madoka finale depressing me out as much as it did. Afterward, I just kind of sat in my room alone for a while. I thought to myself about my life and why I do the things I do. Yeah, I want to get out of here. I've finally figured out the reason I like leaving Zanesville every Thursday -- not only because I can, and because I have the money to spend it, but also because I CAN'T STAND IT HERE. I need to be honest. It's okay, but I wasn't destined to be here. I cried back in 2000 when I came here, and my mom said not to offend everybody who lived here. So I kept my mouth shut. And while summer is something I'm used to in the Z, this spring thing can just shove it.
No Gus Macker this year? Another reason to leave Zanesville. Seriously, that's like cancelling all of summer right there. Thanks guys.
What if I ignored destiny for a minute? What if I just shut my eyes and not worry? I stress out so much over making the wrong decision that I don't make a decision at all. If it were up to me? I'd move to at least Columbus. Or Cincinnati. And I'm rather smitten with Charlotte right now. I would quit my day job. I would get a part-time job and spend my time talking with people and creating. If I could, that is what I would do. What I didn't do when I was at Miami. Make connections, but more importantly, make music. Not sit in my apartment all day watching television. I want the confidence that I've gotten from Y-City Writers, and I want to find that with my music.
"How do you get to heaven? And who has that much time?"
Any thoughts?
