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[memorialrainbow]

Today is kind of messed up. I slept in way later than I normally would have, but I have to work at WHIZ in the morning, and I mean "early morning." So getting more sleep tonight was okay.

I discovered something about work last night, and I just want to give a couple of disclaimers before I mention anything -- 1: this is only my opinion, and does not reflect the company as a whole or any of my coworkers, or 2: I've basically been really quiet about where I work, and that is for a reason. I do not want to get fired from my job because of something stupid. So this is basically a disclaimer for it. This is only what I've been able to see, in myself.

Anyway. I noticed last night at work that the later into the night it gets, the more critical I get of not only myself, but people. And the voices start to creep in. So my self-confidence goes down...and then I start thinking that every caller is CRAZY. It really starts happening after 3, after lunch, when I am just like...WHY am I here, why am I so tired, and why are all these people calling in with simple issues? It's my fault for being critical with them, for not being as understanding. And it doesn't happen all the time. It just happens in those few hours where NOBODY sane should be up.

It's a problem. As Christians, we need to treat all people with love and respect, and I can't do that if I'm constantly a poo at three in the morning. I need to find some way to re-energize myself and not to look down on my customers.

I want a nap I want a nap I want a nap I want a nap