050911 -- Clarification
May. 9th, 2011 04:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
memorialrainbowMade my way to Starbucks. It's such a nice day, and I'm glad I get to spend it here. I really do love Zanesville in the summer. (I've always considered May pre-summer, and not as much spring, though it is still spring. If April showers bring May flowers, then May flowers bring coasters.)
Oh, and I have to tell you all -- this entire week between 3 and 5 PM is happy hour for frappucinos at Starbucks! I totally found out by mistake. Guess who's gonna be living at Starbucks this week? (Another good reason for me to scout out an actual location in Polaris or Easton.) So yeah, if you're in the mood, go find a Starbucks. It'll be awesome. I was also able to download the Starbucks Song of the Week for, liek, the first time EVER. Yay Ringo 2.0.
So to clarify what I wrote about this morning, while at work -- I'm not giving up on my dreams. I still want to perform music, to write. But I only want to do it for God. I can't do it for myself, or I'll swallow myself whole. Remember the entry I wrote about focusing on writing and not as much on music right now? That's because my music needs to be redefined. If I don't do that, I can't use music for God. If I go to NYC and hit up on something sweet with music, it'll be good for my career, sure, but it will be all about me. And I won't be satisfied. If I have two fans, I'll want three. If I have three fans, I will want five. That same pressure is there when I write, but I've never had this huge stigma with writing like I have music. I've wanted to be good in writing. It wasn't something everybody else defined for me.
I need to define what success means in music. For so long, it's been some vague definition of fame that can never be truly satisfied. Satisfaction in writing is FINALLY FINISHING THAT DAMN NOVEL at the end of November. (sends a private message to the ML in Charlotte) This success needs to be for God, not for me. This is going to make releasing Almond Dust that much harder, isn't it?
That's why I've been writing Maristar so much lately. The Maristar series is one that God has given me. I often tell the story of how it came to be -- God completely scrapping my 2006 NaNo idea, then taking me to the student center late at night, with a new notebook, no pen, and an open mind. I still have that notebook, and in the front are notes scribbled as Kira, Jay, Maristar, and the rest of the gang came into being for the first time. God made them what they are, not me.
I write all my other stories -- Steel Angel, Makani, Spangler, LaCrea, Unwound, even Spice! -- with God in mind. HOWEVER, Maristar is the one He Himself brought to life, therefore, it is the most intimate one.
If Camp NaNoWriMo ends up coming to life, and I can really write a novel this summer from scratch, it will be Variations on a Life in D Major. No, not the piece from Burnout -- it is the third book in the Maristar series. Each book after the first, "The Maristar Project," focuses on one of the kids and their adventures at some point after the main book. "Old Dominion," my 2009 NaNo novel, focused on Terry. "Variations" focuses on Kyle, that dork-faced soda-addicted punk rocker played by Racer, and chronologically, his story comes after Terry's. I will eventually get to all of them -- Matthew and Jen definitely need more development, but Jay's story will come last.
I'm also editing Maristar, and after that Old Dominion. As I edit, I will probably start putting the chapters back up on Fictionpress for you all to edit. I can imagine having it both on CreateSpace and Lulu by the end of the summer. How does that sound to anybody?
Ahh. Good times.
In the meantime, I'm gonna try to edit some of Maristar right now, and then go to the movies. Because life is too short to worry about fame.
Oh, and I have to tell you all -- this entire week between 3 and 5 PM is happy hour for frappucinos at Starbucks! I totally found out by mistake. Guess who's gonna be living at Starbucks this week? (Another good reason for me to scout out an actual location in Polaris or Easton.) So yeah, if you're in the mood, go find a Starbucks. It'll be awesome. I was also able to download the Starbucks Song of the Week for, liek, the first time EVER. Yay Ringo 2.0.
So to clarify what I wrote about this morning, while at work -- I'm not giving up on my dreams. I still want to perform music, to write. But I only want to do it for God. I can't do it for myself, or I'll swallow myself whole. Remember the entry I wrote about focusing on writing and not as much on music right now? That's because my music needs to be redefined. If I don't do that, I can't use music for God. If I go to NYC and hit up on something sweet with music, it'll be good for my career, sure, but it will be all about me. And I won't be satisfied. If I have two fans, I'll want three. If I have three fans, I will want five. That same pressure is there when I write, but I've never had this huge stigma with writing like I have music. I've wanted to be good in writing. It wasn't something everybody else defined for me.
I need to define what success means in music. For so long, it's been some vague definition of fame that can never be truly satisfied. Satisfaction in writing is FINALLY FINISHING THAT DAMN NOVEL at the end of November. (sends a private message to the ML in Charlotte) This success needs to be for God, not for me. This is going to make releasing Almond Dust that much harder, isn't it?
That's why I've been writing Maristar so much lately. The Maristar series is one that God has given me. I often tell the story of how it came to be -- God completely scrapping my 2006 NaNo idea, then taking me to the student center late at night, with a new notebook, no pen, and an open mind. I still have that notebook, and in the front are notes scribbled as Kira, Jay, Maristar, and the rest of the gang came into being for the first time. God made them what they are, not me.
I write all my other stories -- Steel Angel, Makani, Spangler, LaCrea, Unwound, even Spice! -- with God in mind. HOWEVER, Maristar is the one He Himself brought to life, therefore, it is the most intimate one.
If Camp NaNoWriMo ends up coming to life, and I can really write a novel this summer from scratch, it will be Variations on a Life in D Major. No, not the piece from Burnout -- it is the third book in the Maristar series. Each book after the first, "The Maristar Project," focuses on one of the kids and their adventures at some point after the main book. "Old Dominion," my 2009 NaNo novel, focused on Terry. "Variations" focuses on Kyle, that dork-faced soda-addicted punk rocker played by Racer, and chronologically, his story comes after Terry's. I will eventually get to all of them -- Matthew and Jen definitely need more development, but Jay's story will come last.
I'm also editing Maristar, and after that Old Dominion. As I edit, I will probably start putting the chapters back up on Fictionpress for you all to edit. I can imagine having it both on CreateSpace and Lulu by the end of the summer. How does that sound to anybody?
Ahh. Good times.
In the meantime, I'm gonna try to edit some of Maristar right now, and then go to the movies. Because life is too short to worry about fame.
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Date: 2011-05-10 02:06 pm (UTC)Good luck!
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Date: 2011-05-10 07:45 pm (UTC)