080711 -- What I Want

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I want to sleep.

I want to descend into a world of dreams and soft colors.
A world where there is a building by the sea,
and my bedroom is on the top floor.
Where everybody lives in harmony,
a roller coaster on the street,
speaking Japanese and overflowing toilets.
Blue skies and smiles
and laughter
and living and playing along the streets.

Helping others
and smiling in the sunshine.
A place where he cannot leave me.
I hate to hold on to him too tightly,
or to tie him down,
but what should I do?
Set a ring upon my heart, a sign upon my finger
that I belong to him and he belongs to me.
That way, wherever he flies,
he will remember.

I wake up.
I am still here.
There's a smile on a penguin's face.
We go shopping, get outside.
The sun is shining.

Tomorrow, I will take my belongings
and I will finally burn this sucker down.

But for today,
I will live
and write
and play
and create
in Zanesville.

What can I do?